When you’re ready, that will be one lucky girl. :’( I don’t know what I did to constantly deserve shit like this…ugggghh. But at least I know I can get over thissssssssss…
But I am doing amazing things. Modeling(which has been amazing), making amazing girl friends<3 and I am gonna do even more! Also clipping the negative things aaand people out of my life ;D Things are going great!
P.S. Karma’s a bitch;) have fun!
I feel like I am losing everything I care about because of my unhappiness…everything. I am trying to be happy, I am trying to be happy for those people more than for myself. I am so lost and confused. I don’t want to think so negatively,I don’t want to be this unhappy, I don’t want this anxiety, I don’t want to be depressed…I don’t even feel I should be explaining myself to anyone! But my life is falling apart and its all my fault. Someday I will be happy again and hopefully the people who care so much will still be there. I am sorry to everyone I’ve burdened. And in no way do I expect sympathy or anything for that matter. I just want comfort and friendship. That’s all. I also just wish people were more communicative with me if I am a problem for them.
I will be happy and don’t think I am not trying. It will just take time to get there.
And FUCK Valentines Day…it doesn’t exist.
Telling someone you love them and not getting in return….heart=broken. I will never be the same again and it is extremely depressing.
Pretty much at the lowest of lows.
Where to go from here……………………
Your mom, who complains about how her two daughters (not me) constantly put her on blast over facebook, puts you on blast…what the fuck did I do. I ignore my family? Ha sorry I don’t come over and do your dishes 3 times a week for free food. I love my mother and she knows that. This is bullshit. Maybe this is a for sure reason for me to get the fuck out of here. Yeah my personal and finacial issues arent gonna be any different whether its here or Hawaii. But at least I will be expeiriencing something new and exciting and get a chance to really be independent. You’d think for once you’d be proud and have something good to say…and you wonder why I am not around, take a look in the mirror. Hypocritical much?
I hope I don’t forget what its like to be happy :( why am I so unhappy? ugh